symptoms of falling in-love

For once I am not going to write something bad about the office. It gets boring eventually, making me look like a whiner or sounding like one.

Anyway, just like the rest of the Homo sapien I have feelings even if I try my best to deny that. Well, bursts of temper would count as emotions right? But falling in-love? I'm not sure if I feel that. Except lately.

I thought I experienced that feeling since I first met one of my friend's brothers during my freshman year, but it was just a long-term infatuation. I thought I fell for one of my classmates during my senior year in college yet I backed out since he is taken. We became friends though, which is much better.

Now here I am in my mid-20's, battling not to become obese but got past caring about it and feeling something but not sure if that is love or not. I met him from the moment I stepped into the office. The funny thing is, he was he one who introduced himself first and me, the ever charmless woman, just showed him my name tag since people have a tendency to pronounce my name wrong no matter how I try to corretc them (actually I don't bother).

We kinda hit it off and ended up being the husband and wife of a skit we had to present then. Of course I had to tell myself to stop dreaming and get real.

After that first meeting, we get to meet frequently since we are in the same office though not the same classroom. He is a charming, friendly and reliable man even quiet at times but he is so sweet, which is what is so attractive about him. One flaw I noticed is that he has a tendency to leave people when he sees someone he knows or maybe that's just me. At least he is not an asshole, thank goodness.

He is a handsome and tall man, which is great since I am a tall woman myself. Anyway, being called darling and sweetheart by this man has a way of letting my mind work on its own. In Filipino nadadala ako sa emosyon ko. It took so much self-control not to let my feelings get the better of me.

My feelings are on and off when it comes to him since I rarely see him around. We have different schedules and if we do see each other, it was brief. He always passes by our team's stations and just a hi from him is fine.

But first and foremost we are friends. I gave him a CD of Seal for his birthday and got a hug from him. He asked for when my birthday is and after telling him the date, he said he will keep it in mind. Well, my birthday's over and it's already March. But I don't want to be pushy.

Even if I told Ice that I love him, I'm not sure if I DO love him. Gets? Maybe I should acknowledge it. I am a 'fraidy cat when it comes to love even if I am an irate agent extraordiniare.

But with everything else...I leave it to God.